Thursday, May 14, 2009
I can't get back to sleep!
It is like 3am in the morning....
And I can't get back to sleep....
Its horrible!
I need the sleep to recover fully!
Eshan is sick too
All my fault for bringing the bug from sch to him.
Poor boy...He falls sick very often...
I am feeling angry and disappointed right now...
Dun ask me why....I m gona try to get back to sleep right now....
Ciaoz
Posted by Caramel at 3:00 AM
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
A Job Well Done
I dedicate this entry to none other than my dearest.......
HUBBY MOHAMED AMIN!
I dunno if he would be readin this anytime soon...
But I just have to give it to him for handling my sick lil boy so well!
Amin has always been one to take a back seat in the parenting.
Usually it is jsut me doing everything with and for Eshan.
Sometimes it can be quite frustrating as I have always felt that he should be more involved so that I will be less stressed.
But when Eshan fell sick...it seemed like it was for so long.
But that one week...
I think Eshan's recovery was hastened because of the way Amin took care of Eshan.
He has just got his way. He is not like me.
Does'nt restrict Eshan at the same time, still manages to keep things under control.
I admire that coz I dunno how to do that...Amin knows when to let go....
Eshan was very very happy under his father's care.
I can't explain how I felt when I came back home to find Eshan all happy and playing with his dad.
Thank you for being such a great father Amin. That was certainly a job well done!
And how can I forget my family who never failed to do anything they could to make him better.
And Zai who went an extra mile and made me break down....
And frens who never failed to check on how he was doing....
I love you guys!
*Thank you God for Eshan's recovery....
Posted by Caramel at 9:30 AM
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Yet again!
Rayn is sick yet again!
He was coughing for 1 month....
Brought him to the doctor that I usually go to.
Usually he will recover quite fast...
But this time.it took too long!
The doctor did not give him antibiotics because he did not have fever then..Besides this doctor believes in allowing the child to build up his/her own immune system.
However, On Sunday midnight, he developed a a fever of 39 degrees!
I got so worried.
Because fever can be really fatal..
I know people who lost their hearing due to high fever...
And so I had to be on child care leave yesterday...
Was feeling quite bad because it was the first day of sch...
But what to do...No one else to help me...
Where is my mum!!!
Why is she not here?
Why?
Went to a different doc this time...
He said that Rayn has hypersensitive lungs....
Might have to rent the nerbuliser if he does not get much better...
So sad... am worried that he might become an asthmatic just like me...
Doc gave two days mc for him...
But I thought that he would get better by today and that I would be able to go to school today...
However, when I woke up at 7am today, his fever was at 39.1 deg!
Aiyooo I got soo worried...
His high fever does not usually last for 2 days...
But the doctor did warn me that it will take up to 3 days for his fever to recover.
Its due all the phlegm in his lungs I guess....
Poor boy!
So I had no choice but to take another day of child care leave....
I had to miss the SEMTREX exercise..
But what to do...
Its the calling of my job as a mother...
I really miss my mother...
I still wonder...Why did God have to take her away from us when she had just started to enjoy life.....Why?
What can I do to get her to meet Rayn?
They would have made an invincible duo!
Posted by Caramel at 7:17 PM
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Help!
I have three observations next week and I am sick!
Arrrrghhhh How?
Posted by Caramel at 9:34 PM
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Lack of energy
I have been feeling very very tired lately.
All I wanna do is to lie down on my bed!
Have so many things to do but just cun find the energy and motivation to get down to it.
Doesn't help that it is raining now...
I want my bed!!!
By the way I feel like eating butter prawns!!!!!
Posted by Caramel at 6:06 PM
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Lonely lonely
Today morning, Amin wanted to go for a haircut....And so off we went to Tiong Bahru Plaza early morning.
Eshan was supposed to go to school. Somehow managed to brainwash Amin to look after him....
While Amin was cutting his hair...Eshan was sitting on the bench and watching his dear papa getting his hair cut. I was waiting outside. He kept calling out to me and telling me excitely, "Mummy look Papa cutting hair!" Haha
Then came a mother with two of her kids. both boys. One was about 7 and the other 10? The kids sat beside Eshan and started playing some games la.
Eshan being an extrovert and a friendly boy, was talking to the boys while they were playing. He wanted to play too I guess...He also told them..."Friend, look Papa cutting hair!"
And you know what the younger boy did...he looked at Eshan as if he was some alien...and moved away from his seat and continued playing but this time away from Eshan...And the mother was just standing there...Bloody hell...Amin said its the way they have been brought up. I know I cun expect every kid to be as friendly as Eshan. In fact Eshan can intimidate people at times. Because he is too friendly. He can make a conversation with ALL kinds of people...Regardless of age, race, sex, etc...
But this is basic courtesy rite...
They were really behaving as if Eshan was from outer space. And the mum does not have the basic cow sense to teach her kids..
This Eshan, before leaving...went to stand beside the boys and started trying to play with them..And they moved away as well..Then I just called him and walked away...I think becoz I am pmsing..I just teared...it struck me then...that Eshan is really lonely...Its not the same...Ya he has very doting aunts and grandparents...But he also needs a brother or a sister to play with...I DO NOT want him to be a single child...Yet I fear that he might just be...What if I am not blessed to have another one? I will be forever guilty...Coz I know for sure that being a single child...he will not experience the life the same way someone who has siblings will..I dun want him to make a friend out of the BLOODY television set!
What makes matters worse is that the darling hubby of mine....does NOT want another child just as yet! How frustrating is that...He will never understand where I am coming from...Why? Coz he is the only child! That is why he did'nt get to experience what I did....He loves the TV more than me coz he did not have a human being to grow up with him! And I dun wan my Rayn Eshan to be like that! And it is not as if child bearing comes sooo easily to me you know...I am not that blessed! And..And...And...Arrrggghhhh
Haiz..I think I am really pmsing! I dun ever wana see me precious lonely! The joy that siblings can give him can NEVER EVER be compared to anything that BLOODY money can buy! I know money is essential. But money is NOT everything...I know coz....cause I grew up with the most AMAZING sisters in the world! Yes we do fight like boys...In fact even worse...But I still love them to the core! Life would never be the same without sisters like them! And the best part...we were never rich....Rayn has to experience the wonder that I did...and still am experiencing...So GOD please bless me with more!!! And God please change Mr Amin's mind!
Ok that frustrated part aside..
I thoroughly enjoyed the 4 days with Rayn!
But he doesn't listen to me anymore!
By the way I woke up with a sticker on my hand this morning!
Haha think he rewarded me for being so nice to him for the past few days... :)
It was indeed a good start to the day.
The other day when I was driving back..they were playing a song that Rayn loves to dance for. So I started dancing while driving...and I urged him to dance with me...
This is the convo that followed:-
Rayn: Mummy cannot dance!
Me: Why? (By the way he just does not like me to dance)
Rayn: Because Mummy driving...
Haha that left me with nothing to argue.
I just stopped and listened to him.
Then yesterday, he had thrown his crayons all over the house yet again.
Asked him to pick them up.
He had the cheek to order me to do it!!
I said fine...I will bring the hanger....
He said ok...
When I brought it our dear fren got quite scared...
So he pretended to keep the crayons...
After gathering a few...guess what he told me....
Rayn: Mummy...crayons sleeping cannot keep. Mummy cannot beat
Me: Rayn keep your crayons now....crayons have woken up!
Rayn: Mummy...Sshhhh crayons sleeping cannot disturb.!
Can you beat that!!!!!!
This boy ah...I told Amin..I officially declare that I cun discipline him!
Rayn Eshan...Mummy loves you da! Chellakutty!
I miss him sooo much!
Posted by Caramel at 3:11 PM
Friday, January 9, 2009
Happy Weekend!
Have a good weekend people!
It has been a very very long week.
Get well soon papa!
Posted by Caramel at 6:03 PM